It's not just blogging. I keep a physical journal as well. I love writing and given the fact that I don't open up to people much, I tend to write a lot. Just thoughts, feelings, things bothering me, things I want to improve on and pretty much anything I feel like getting out of my system ends up on a piece of paper courtesy of one of the thirty-something pens I own. My last entry in my physical journal was forty-six days ago.
I know anyone reading this is probably thinking I'm having a case of good old-fashioned writer's block. That's really not it either. I have the words. When I can make myself sit down and do so, the words I want come freely and easily. It's just my motivation to put those words down anywhere is sorely lacking. It puzzles me a bit because it would be easier if it was just a case of, "I know what I want to say but I just can't put it into words." I'm just not in the mood to do any writing, or typing, at all lately. Which annoys me because I can't figure out why I can't be bothered to do something I don't see as a chore. I'm not disinterested in writing. I'm enjoying this right now even though I'm making myself sit here and type out a post about why I haven't been writing or blogging lately.
I think the cause of my issue is stress, possibly. I've got an enormous amount of stress going on right now and that's not something I usually have a lot of to deal with. I'm rather laid back and don't let much get to me as a general rule. It takes a lot to get me down and a lot to make me feel stressed. I have several big things in my life just going wrong right now and finding solutions to them is proving to be rather difficult. So I spend down time trying not to think and trying to relax. Which kind of fucks with my ability to write because I kind of need to think about things and not zone out into a happy little zen place where everything that runs through my mind is just a fuzzy, soft blur of nothing. I don't even know if that makes any sense to anyone else but it makes sense to me, so there's that.
I think, since I miss writing and blogging, I'm just going to make myself sit and write about something a couple times a week. It gives me something to work on and helps me focus on something that isn't stressing me out. Also, writing makes me feel good and you can never do enough good things for yourself, right? Right. ;)