Thursday, August 11, 2011

R.I.P. Puppy Love

I talked about this on Twitter a little the day it happened but didn't feel like blogging about it at the time. I do now.

July 29TH, my boyfriend's dog died. She was 7 years old. She suffered from a stroke, went to the vet, was doing better and recovering, then had another stroke the following morning she couldn't recover from and died. It was sad. My boyfriend called the vet right when their office opened to see if we could pick her up that day since she had been doing much better and we were supposed to be able to bring her home. Instead, he was told she had died just a few minutes prior to his call.

Her name was Akasha and she was very much a part of the family. He was crushed. I was upset. I met her when she was 2 and she was such a beautiful dog. She was loyal, protective and sweet. They say dogs often take on the personalities of their owners and I believe that given that a lot of her qualities were similar to that of traits my boyfriend has.

The boyfriend raised Akasha from the time she was a puppy. Here's a picture of her when she was a little gal.

I feel so bad for the Boyfriend. I know he misses her a lot and he was expecting her to come home, not pass away. He got bummed out being near the pet toys in a store the other day. Death is always easier when you know it's coming though it still sucks. When it's unexpected, there's that painful shock that stings along with the pain of losing something special. Hope and relief are a real bitch when it falls through.

About a week ago, I was looking out into the back yard and started crying. I was so used to standing there for a few minutes watching Akasha doing various things out back there. It was weird looking out there and not seeing her.

It's been strange. I always thought of her as "my boyfriend's dog" and I didn't realize how much a part of my life she had become in the 5 years that we've been together. I miss her, definitely more than I thought I would.

She didn't bark a lot, only when someone unfamiliar came near or at other animals that came near. Now every time I hear a random noise outside, I wonder what it is because she's not out there to scare off or take on the threatening stuff.

It's weird not having a dog around who's instantly happy to see you. That will cheer you up so fast, honestly. Bad day but then you see your dog who's got their tail thumping and tongue wagging around because they're just happy to see you.

Though I'll be honest, I'm glad she won't be in any kind of pain any longer. She had a couple minor health complications before the strokes happened that she was taking medication for. So, at leas she isn't hurting anymore.

I know a lot of people don't understand because to some people, pets are just pets, not a part of the family. Other people do understand. You train them, teaching them how to behave and how not to behave. You feed them, bathe them, play with them, take them to the vet when they're sick or hurt, miss them, care for them and love them. I do want another dog, just not any time soon. And I know there's no way my boyfriend will be ready for a new pup any time soon either.

10 comments:

T said...

It's HARD right after a dog dies... especially unexpectedly. You miss the feeling of having a dog around and yet no dog can replace the one you just lost. There's familiarity and routine that won't be established with another dog for a very long time.

I'm so sorry for your loss. This reminded me of how I'll feel when my boyfriend's dog passes. My pup is still new & I'm praying for her too!

((hugs))

Myli said...

I'm sorry for your loss :( That dog was so adorable! I wish I had the right words to say to make it seem better.

nitebyrd said...

I'm so sorry. The loss of a pet is as profound as any loss. My deepest sympathies to you and your boy friend.

phairhead said...

I'm so sorry for yr loss!

She was beautiful

Nolens Volens said...

It's good that you will not get a dog soon. This allows those to grieve properly and heal.

MinorityReport said...

That's heartbreaking. I'm so sorry.

shattermeagain said...

I'm so sorry. So sad
=(

viemoira said...

So sorry to hear about your loss of part of the family- my dogs are like my kids to me...
~viemoria

miglet said...

My deepest condolences to you and your boyfriend.

Since I am a person who (along with my mother) still grieves daily over my dog (and it's been 20 years), I understand too well the personal nature of this loss.

I wish you both well in this difficult time.

Ashly Star said...

T:
Exactly. :) ((hugs))


Myli:
It's okay, I don't think there are words to make it better but I appreciate your comment. You're such a sweetie. :)


nitebyrd:
So true. Thank you. :)


phairhead:
She was. I wish I'd been able to find a better picture that was more recent but that was one of my favorites of her. Thank you.


NV:
Indeed. I can't imagine bringing another dog in yet. It'd be odd.


Minority:
Thank you, friend. :)


shatter:
Thank you. :)



viemoira:
I understand that. :) Thank you.


miglet:
Aw, that's so sad. I know we'll miss her every day, too. It's not much different than losing a person from your life. I know a lot of people don't understand that. (((hugs))