Wednesday, July 16, 2008

The Bucket List...

I'm watching The Bucket List right now. It's with Morgan Freeman and Jack Nicholson. I didn't see it when it came out in theaters. I wanted to but I wasn't sure about it. My dad has a ton of DVD's that I want to see. Movies I just never had the time or money to go see. Movies I wasn't sure on and didn't want to waste the cash on seeing. I've already seen the first 40 minutes of this movie before now. I'm not missing anything by typing this out. It's kind of sad but amusing as well.

Something from the movie is Morgan Freeman talks about knowing how much time you'll have left versus never knowing when you will die. I got to thinking about whether or not I would want to know such a thing or not. If I could have my time of death down to the year, month, day and exact time handed to me with it being guaranteed that I wouldn't kick it one second before the time written down for me. Would I want to know? Would I not want to know? I see plus sides to both sides. If I knew, I would know the amount of time I have left exactly. I could find ways to fit in every thing I want to do before I die; make my own "bucket list" so to speak and get it all done before I pass. I could have the time to get used to the idea that this is when I will be dying. My loved ones would know and have the time to get used to it. The problem in that is, even when you know, you're still never fully prepared for it when it does happen. It still hurts like hell and you're still sad. It's only marginally easier knowing it's coming. It would also be depressing know that you're only living those days with an exact timer to when your life will end. After much contemplation, I decided that there's no way I want to know. I have a list of things I want to do before I die. I have some some of them. I do plenty of things for fun. I don't take life very seriously in all honesty. I'm only here for as long as I'm here, I want to enjoy my loved ones and the space I'm occupying while I have it all. If I do everything I want to, that's great, wonderful even. If I die before I do, I at least want to know that I enjoyed what time I have.

Wednesday Weirdness #12

This week, the Weirdness comes from Another Suburban Mom. She sent in the questions and I thought it was a pretty neat idea. She admits she was inspired by Mary McCormack in "In Plain Sight" for these questions. Thanks ASM! Remember, if you ever want to submit questions or ideas, feel free to do so! On to the weirdness!

If you could enter the witness protection program, but only you, no contact with family or friends, would you? Why or why not?

There was a time, not even that long ago at all, that probably would have said yes. There have been a hundred or more times that I wished I could take off and start over new somewhere else. Tons of times I felt I could just in essence, disappear and not have it be missed too much by anyone. It was an appealing idea that toyed with many, many, many times in my head. A few times, even planned out the cost to do something like that and started saving money for it. I obviously never did that. I am grateful I never did. Now, I wouldn't do it if I didn't have to. =) I'd hate to have to leave my family, boyfriend and awesome friends behind forever. That would suck. I don't want to run away from my life anymore. Just myself. Sometimes. Lol.

Assuming you had to go:

Where would you move to?

I would want to move every five years. You know, to be safe and everything. That way it would be more difficult to be found that way by whatever bad guy is looking for me. Plus, if I can't have my current friends and my family, there's no point in staying in one place forever. ;) Starting with Italy, then Finland, then Amsterdam and then Ireland. I'd figure out more locations after that.

What would you choose for your new name?

Autumn Isabella Turco. =) The Turco part could be negotiable. Autumn Isabella took me too damn long to come up with to be changed, lol.

How would you reinvent yourself?

I'd be mysterious and not let anyone close to me. I'd give as little information as I could. Make acquaintances, have lovers but never anything too serious. Wear eccentric clothing, more eccentric anyway, lol. Gothic old style things. Odd hair styles and coloring jobs. Colored contact lenses in odd colors and shapes.
I'd do odd jobs. Things I enjoy. Bar tending. Art. Cooking. Photography. Writing. Singing. I would just try and enjoy life and keep things as simple as I could.

Good thing I shouldn't ever have to worry about that. Actually, I'd probably ask to have surgery done to change my looks greatly enough I couldn't be recognized and then very slowly work my way back in to my old life. Take a few years away perhaps. I have no clue how I would handle such a thing. I doubt I will ever have to find out or truly worry about it, thankfully.

Happy Wednesday!!!


TravelogueQueen said...

Happy Wednesday! great answers my friend.

Macabre Girl said...

I never fully saw TBL. I watched the first half hour and realized it would likely make me cry and decided I could do without. Maybe one day, I will finish.

I love the paragraph you wrote about knowing versus not knowing however. Given consideration to what you stated and my own point of view on it, I would rather never know myself. Some things are better left to the unknown, death being one of them.

I love the WW answers. I had a trouble coming up with good answers this week. The name you chose is quite pretty.

Happy Wednesday my beautiful friend. <3

The Bizza said...

I had great difficulty sitting through TBL. I don't deal with the topic of mortality very well. I either evade it by joking, or I shut down.

Great post.

jGrrl said...

I have no choice but to face my mortality, especially lately...

I got a note from a friend, her mom has Crohn's like me and she just passed on, her colon died and when they opened her to fix it - it crumbled, there was nothing they could do...

Right after that - another friend told me that her ex boyfriend's sister was only 28, didn't know she was having any issues with her Crohn's, went to a bathroom and beld out right there! I was a mess for a few hours when I got all this delightful news the other night...

*sighs deeply*

Either way - my days really are numbered - I'd like to know exactly when, if I could, so that I'd know how much time I had to finish the things that I know I must do before I go...

Jason said...

as far as movies go i am trying to find time to watch batman begins which i never saw because this latest batman movie looks like it will be one of the good ones

i liked batman and batman returns but after that they started messing up

also nice WW answers

do people say HWWW - have a wonderfull wednesday weirdness


Baby said...

Happy Wednesday - and I like your idea of living in all those different places !!! :)

TUG said...

I watched that a couple of weeks ago. I think I agree with what you wrote and the reasons why. Makes sense to me.

Melissavina said...

Okay, so this is random, but I think you'll love it. Have you ever seen the movie Point of No Return with Bridget Fonda and Durmot Mulroney? I think you will flip over it if you haven't seen it before. I own it and I love it. It's old, it was in theaters for a millisecond in 1993 so don't expect it to be super modern, but it's good. Okay, that's all. Bye!

Carapace said...

Having been closer to the prospect of my own imminent demise than most 20-somes, I have to say I would absolutely want to know. Being scared of death makes about as much sense to me as being scared of my period. I'd rather not, but meh, it takes us all. If I know exactly when, I can have things planned, make it all easier on my family, and prioritize. There's so much effort we go through for our future selves-- eating well, going to college, not committing federal crimes... knowing exactly when that effort wouldn't be worth it would be very freeing.
Probably play havoc with the credit industry, though.

Amorous Rocker said...

Thank you darlin'!

Macabre Girl:
Thank you. I agree.
Thank you! I had a hard time coming up with a name.

The Bizza:
If I have to verbalize about that subject, I don't do well.
Thank you.

That just makes me sad. I'm sorry for you dear. I wish you didn't have to face such things. Wishing helps nothing most times though. ((hugs))

I cannot wait for the latest Batman. *Sigh* =)
I like all of the movies but a couple of them are hard to watch with the way they were done.
Thank you!
Lol, no people don't say that. They might start now. ;)

Thank you!

Cool! Thank you. It's interesting to hear what other people have to say on that issue.

Melissavina :
Lol. Random indeed. I'll have to check it out though, thank you!

I've been close to death a few times and two of those times I thought for sure I was not going to make it. I still maintain that I'd rather just not know for sure when it's truly my time. I know myself and know the time would fly by and I would be sad. Like I said, I see the ups and see the downs to knowing vs not knowing. I'd just rather not know and live like I want until it happens. Of course, different strokes for different folks. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me on this! I always enjoy hearing other people's perspectives on things. =)

Inarticulate Fumblings said...

Know I've been MIA. In case you're interested, our travel blog is up and running while we're away. Peace - IF

Rage said...

Autumn Isabella - that's pretty. You could so be like a ninja spy and not let others close to you. The perfect life.

In reference to the first half of your post, I think if I knew when I was going to croak off, I would make sure I did my fair share of drugs before I kicked the bucket. No judgment readers, that's just how I'd do it.