You may have noticed that things look a little different around here. No funky error chewed up my blog and spit it back out empty. I have cleared it up so to speak. I will work on it the next couple days to get it all snazzy looking again. All the posts are gone. Most of them are going to stay that way too.
I am no longer going to be playing HNT any longer. Maybe I will but it won't be the things people are used to seeing. If I keep playing HNT, they will be tame pictures. Y'all will be quite sick of seeing my eyes, lips, face, shoulders and neck if I do keep playing.
There's been some issues going on recently in my real life that have made me decide to quit playing. It has absolutely nothing to do with my boyfriend. He's been cool about it all this time and he rocks for that. The issues with it lie in a couple of other places. I feel violated horribly of my privacy and violated of things that delve far deeper than simple privacy issues. It is nothing any of you did though. It has very little to do with anything online at all. Don't think I'm letting some creep on the internet get the best of me. I'm stronger than that. Please don't apologize at all for anything because none of you are responsible. The one who is knows it already. I won't post about it in any more detail. It's very personal and I'd prefer not to air it to any and everyone reading this. No offense. I feel violated and honestly pretty angry about the whole ordeal. Along with several other emotions. *Sigh*
The posting is going to stay the same though for the most part. I contemplated just deleting my blog but my problem there is I love to write. I love my blog and the outlet it gives me to ramble on and on about things.
So moving on to something happier. Anyone who reads here at all knows that I'm bisexual. Something that has bothered me for years was wanting to be open about that with my family. I felt I was unable to because I didn't quite know how my family would react. I didn't want them treating me differently just because I like guys and girls. So late Thursday night/early Friday morning, my boyfriend and I were still at my mom's house. We were talking about some issues and the subject of sex came up. I just finally looked at my mom and said, "So you know I'm bisexual, right?" She didn't miss a beat with her reply. She wasn't sure but she had suspected it since I was 18/19. Now she knows. My youngest brother knows. My sister knows. They thought it anyway. I just confirmed it. My sister also confirmed that she knows I think Christina Ricci is hot. Which, in case you don't quite see it, means that those three family members are all fine with it. We talked about it for maybe ten minutes. Being mostly my mom and them telling me nothing changed, I'm still me, who cares if I like girls too? I was so beyond relieved. It felt so fucking good to finally just get it out there and say it. Even if they freaked out, I felt relieved after saying it. My boyfriend was just pretty stunned that I just said it so bluntly and easily because he knows that I've worried over how they would react about it for so long. I worried for nothing. I would be disappointed if it bothered them. To me, it's just a part of who I am. For them to not accept it or to treat me differently because of it would hurt. It would feel like they weren't accepting a part of me. It seems I don't have to worry though and it makes me happy. So very relieved as well. I'm grinning as I type this. I know a lot of people don't understand why it's a big deal. Mostly, it isn't a big deal at all. It's only a "big deal" on a very personal, emotional level I think. I'm happy and won't worry about it anymore though. =D